my english become suck

yo!

due of too much calculation and mandarin i have no time for my english

past -present tense__become tension!! <<<<<---- this is suck

have a few days to my final exam, and my preparation become suck and slow

so my heart also become slow

hurt almost everything beside me

talk bad about others person

which i feel guilt after doing it

coz no matter how much i hate her, i should not expose

hypocrisy in myself

which i regret the most

this sem, this is first time i doing it

i hope i can ignore her

her here is my roomate,

she likes to tell everyone about her boyfriend life (maybe she thought that people will give a damn to her boyfriend)

sorry dude, i dont even care about it!

just stop making noisy , talking to everyone like they are deaf!

yup your boyfriend maybe deaf (he not),but im not deaf dude!

i can hear ur voice even in my sleep!!

and u are so dirty, can u even throw the ur own garbage into the basket??

pheww! i hate u so damn much!!

u have a good appearance but ugly personality!

u tell ur boyfriend how clever u are , but why dont u tell him that u are a dirty person!

i hate u!!

-------done-------

haha! ok next topic is my brain.

i miss u,

i have a dream about u

sweet dream though

this is because ur friend hurt me

and my love is helping me to make me feel better

but im not a good person

because i gonna hurt my lova

as much as i hurt u

i love to lie

i hate that

i become a liar because of u

when i put honesty first, u dont believe me

but thats not your fault,

i can control

controllable factor

so i will try to be honest and kind person

about the dream,

in my dream u come and we reconcile

it was a sweet dream

anyway , i just convo after my last exam, straight pass at the first attempt

huhu^^... now i going through acca

which my ambition to go to uk on-the-way to be true<<<<-----(please dont use this word^^)

i just bought blackberry bold 3, i hope we can bbm each other one day

i do miss u

and i love my lova

now

everytime i felt something wrong i will come and tell u

last night my wallet missing, i dropped it at 7 ele..

b4 i went there im having what a 'nice' conversation with ur friend

my brain seems broke somewhere...

and i hope someone can fix it

and my blackberry need update the os or i will never see the text message icon..

hmm...

upside down..

downside....

i hope i can choose my own life, whether to be human or not..

i choose to be robot..

without feeling and hurt..

i hurt my dealova badly...

however in such a bad day i have a a good news to..

congrats to my lova..

life is not simple as i thought when i was young...

i never thought that my life will be like this

i want to be photographer

it just my passionate...

i love doing this!!

first pic i have taken is my lova in the harvey norman at sunway pyramid..

-__-

remember that symbol?

u teach me that symbol and i like it

im just buying iphone 4 white colour and blackberry bold 2 black one...(white and black)

hehe... gadget freak..

after doing some hacking stuff on my iphone..

waa!! so happy! can install many games!!

lalalaolol..

so many things happen...

im thinking of part time...(now im doing part time by fixing and selling phone)

im thinking of becoming a photographer..

just my parents dont allow me.. hmm

more suffering

this is about my ex

i cant forget my ex

i cant forget u either

what wrong with my brain!

please! if cupid exist i will take the arrow and strike to his/her head!

no matter cute the cupid are!

today my ex call me say a lot of thing bout 'someone'

someone that i hate the most!

someone that my ex love the most!

what da fark! why need to tell me!

cheating on me while keep telling me "i love u" everyday

dont u ever think what i felt!

i miss u fa.....

regret all the thing i have done..

not the thing that the stuart says!

the thing that i have done to u! both of us know bout it!

my lova such a very good lover

never hurt me but im always doubt did my dear really love me or just pity on me?

coz i dont have anything... im just pathetic(that the word i learn from u)

can i be edward cullen and kill all people that hurt me!!

should i just end my life?

i hurt u so much..and i know my lova the next victim

people also hurt me..

can somebody love me?

i cant forget ur dimple,ur smile

sigh! im suck!

today

im going to there with my cwitheart..

when i saw u, deep inside my heart i said 'she just same as before'..

then u wearing ur spectacles...hmm..more ok i think

however i hate seeing the person beside u..

i hope u dont win the competition ...

not because i hate u,but because if u win then more people will know and recognised u..

sorry of being selfish..

however..this blog looks real u, not the one that i saw today..

maybe because when i remember u my heart sank...hurt...

(all because of my stupidity) ... so this blog listening to every story about me and u...

im going to college tomorrow

leaving my cwitheart here..

i hate u ,but i love u...

possible to me not u..

sad

reading ur sister's blog really make me sad...

imagine how u felt when u see all that,make me thinking why dont god take mine not him..

when me myself so much hatred to you ,coz u make my life suck, u facing alot of tears and pressure..

how useless i am...

when i went away from ur lyfe , u just hope u will be happy and i will hate u so much..

but all those things become upside down..

i really hope syh will take care of u .. i just cant imagine how sad u are when ur brother gone..

keep asking myself 'why him? there are so much people love him,and he is so kind, to be compare with me,im nothing but suck'

can i transform into ur brother and make ur family happy?

i cant..

i hope the postman heaven really exist so i can post a letter to him

dear ------,

i hope u are doing fine there,

i want u know that u will be in their heart forever,

and i want to marry you if u are alive, dont ever care bout ur leg or wutsoever..

u are not perfect? perfect enough for me..

i have done so many things in my lyfe and most of it are unforgiven..

the way ur sis love u make me also fall in love with u.

i just hope u are here..

seeing ur face make my tears fall..

u are such beautiful creature in the world..

it just sad love story

i got a nightmare..

all about my past and i hope i can forget her..

but im too weak..

even dream about her..

what should i do?

a kisses make thousand years to forget..and make my heart suffering...

forgive me..

forgive me...

forgive me...

i hope u know that im not the same person that done all the stupid and immature things to u..

im changed..but my heart still ...........'

im now at uitm shah alam..

i take professional course.. CAT-ACCA

my parents a little bit disappointed when i choose acca rather than English foundation at IIUM..

they said "u should go there,its a good place instead of uitm' but they still support me..

here... a lot of obstacle... going through the way that i will never know my future...

im happy when left NAIM since i can start my new lyfe at AMAN..

everything just so perfect... im not the stupid person that the Stuart always said..

i score my add math, accounting and science.. im not the same person anymore..

i didn't believe friendship anymore..

but i have so many friends that trying to make me believe in it...

just... stuck with my old behavior 'stubborn' ..

these all sort of friends is totally ridiculous..

i hate all the teachers in naim.. the counselor ( i trust her when i told my problem and she telling that to everyone, how sick i am, if just i have a chance to slap her)...

i love all my mualimah at aman... seriously u will never know that there still have someone that can help me that much...

i love them ...luckily there is no counselor..

i hope u read this and know that i never forget u..and im so sorry for all things that i ever done to u...